My friend Lisa has recently been going through what I feel like I go through at least monthly -- that sense of, Good God, get these kids away from me and give me some peace. And she made a point today that I make all the time, and that few people seem to get -- I don't want to go away anywhere and have time away from my family. What I really crave is for everyone to get the fuck out of my house and leave me alone (I love her idea of a kiddie hotel). To read, to do laundry, to watch my DVR'd shows, to just have some time with no whining and no crying and no noisy toys.
Which I am finally getting for the next two weeks until I start the new job.
And holy shit, it's so nice. I got the kids up and out the door by 8:15. Zeke started his new preschool and did so well. I've been preparing him for this day for a long time, and at first he was nervous and saying that he wanted to go to the old school. But I talked him off the ledge, and after we dropped Josie off at her daycare, he said, "where are we going, Mama?" And I said, "we're going to your new school sweetie. You're going to make new friends and learn all kinds of cool stuff and it'll be great." He said, "I'm going to be just fine."*
I've been telling him that all along. And I guess he gets it. So we went in and met the teachers and he said hi to his friend Connor and sat down to have breakfast with everyone and said, "bye, Mama!" without a look back. Which is exactly what I wanted.
And then I came home, got back into bed and finished my book. Which was seriously phenomenal -- one of the best books I've read in awhile, and one of the few experiences of reading a book in which I truly had no idea what was going to happen.
Then I took a nap.
Then I had something to eat.
Then I watched Saturday night's recording of SNL -- love me some Jon Hamm.
Then I did the dishes.
Then I had a massage.
I couldn't do this forever. I'm too restless. But I'll take it for the next two weeks.
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*Then we had a hilarious conversation about what we should feed the lion that lives in his closet. He opted for crumbs, but I said that lions might need more food than that and suggested hamburgers.
Ohhhh, this sounds WONDERFUL! I'm so glad you're getting a break, a real break, between jobs.
ReplyDeleteYes. That's what I want. For everyone to get the fuck out of my house and leave me alone. I love you people, now leave me alone.